About six months ago I made a huge decision, in a very short time. I got offered a job in New Zealand, that's right, New freakin' Zealand! I only had about one or two days to make up my mind if I wanted to take that leap of faith and accept the job. Me, being extremely impulsive, decided in one day and accepted that job.
Fast forwards four months later and I was at the airport saying goodbye to my family and one of my closest friends. I didn't realize how hard it would be to say goodbye to them and unfortunately I couldn't stop the tears from coming. All I kept on thinking was "I cannot believe I am actually doing this. Me. Lyndsay. A person who has never been away from home for more than two weeks, is moving across the world for at least 6 months!" It was just insane. After the first flight to Vancouver, I was no longer upset, I was excited for the new adventure ahead of me.
Now it has been two months since I have been here. Two months may not seem like a long time, though it feels like I have been here for ages! Sadly, the job is not what I had expected. It has been extremely difficult trying to cope with everything and being completely isolated with no one I know around! I have had my days where I feel like I am going crazy, where I cry myself to sleep, where all I wanna do is go to the airport and hop on the first flight back to Canada but I've learned something. In life we all make decisions and even though sometimes we don't like those decisions, we owe it to ourselves to stick it out, whatever situation you may be in, for at least a little bit, to give ourself some time to experience and learn new things.
Last year, I got a tattoo on my arm that says "be positive". I got it to remind myself to try to be positive in all situations, life isn't fair and bad stuff will happen but if I just stay positive, everything will be okay. I will admit that I was not always so positive and I did go through some hard times in my life but don't we all? Well, this journey of mine I have really stuck with that whole "be positive" mind set. It can COMPLETELY change any situation you are in. Although the situation I am in sucks, I am choosing to see the goods things I am gaining from it. For example...I am focusing on myself a whole lot since I've been here, I make sure I wash my face everyday (which I used to be terrible at) I floss! I have also joined a gym, so I can be fit and healthy. I have decided to focus on myself for the next four months I am here. I did not come all the way to New Zealand for a completely shitty experience. I am going to choose the positive route and make the best out of it.
The way we think really does affect us. If we don't think that we are going to achieve something, most likely we won't achieve that thing. Life is all about experiences, good ones AND bad ones. My advice is to just live each day in the present, don't worry about anything else. Focus on making yourself better. If you are in a bad situation, focus on how you can make it better; find a silver-lining! I know, trust me, I know, that sometimes it seems like all there is in your mind is negative thoughts, but if you try really hard, you never know what will come of it. The worlds gives back what you give to the world.
Hope you have a lovely day and enjoy my first blog post about my adventures here in New Zealand.
Lots of love,
Lyndsay xx
